Its the time of the year to be moody. I could feel it in my bones.
My body works like the seasons on earth. There's a time for every season and i guess its spring time for me. Why spring, you asked? Its because spring is right after autumn. Autumn is jus lovely, seeing those colourful leaves(red, yellow, green, brown, purple, wadever colours also got! ) and the weather is cool and breezy and its jus like love is in the air! And always after a wonderful time, its moody again.
Maybe you presume that it is most likely a mood swing i'm having. But despite some things which could make ordinary humans happy, failed with me! Like winning 70% of my soccer bettings? Everything jus go smoothly in school & everywhere! Its not an ordinary moodswing if you insist.
Most of the time i wonder, God created me for a reason, what's the reason? Save the world? spread the gosple? be a manager? I really do not know the answer. Maybe its jus me who's thinking too much or i'm not a certified christian yet. I always regard myself as a Christian, but my foundation is extreme shallow.
But i'm sure God still Loves me. The things he did somehow jus touched my heart and he showed his light to me once more, brighter , clearer! Maybe i'm going off-track, that's the reason why he carried me back on path.
And it came to me how fragile life could be. If you could recall, this uncle of mine recently found out that he is terminally ill with cancer cell spreading in his body. Its currently at 3rd stage now. And guess what? In his life, he do not drink ! Smoke ! And he lead a healthy life style by waking up early to excerise and turning in early with sufficent rest each day. To think of all people, he could be the one being diagnose with cancer.
The 2 impt person in my life so far would be overseas for a long period. One of them is 64days, The other is 18days. It would be quite meaning-less for me (in everyway lah!), so i guess i have to indulge myself into earning money to take up all of my spare time.
Gees, maybe its time to fold up this diary and move on without it. Maybe its time.. maybe..