2006 is the new word. Time really flies , dont you think so ? In fact , i could even remember 2005's new years resolution that i said about. heh.
This time round , there'll be no more stupid new year resolution anymore ! All i wan is my baby ! ( dun kpo pls, thankyou =D )
You know , whenever a new year approaches near by, sometimes you would ponder about what you did for past years ? Instead of thinking what you gonna do in the new year. Get it ? You blurbird..
In life, i always tell myself. I dont need to be rich. I dont need to be famous. I dont need any wonders of the world or treasure found beneath the sea-bed.
I jus need to live meaningfully.
Wad do i meant by meaningfully , you asked ?
Meaningfully means by doing things that serve a true purpose in life. Lets say you're born rich. You spend wildly with fancy cars, played around, idle around, wasted 3/4 of your life on fun. Do you think you spend a lifetime doing things that you dont even know why did you do it before?
Instead of an average person working normally , and every weekend, he makes time to go for services to churches, and spend time with people that could use a helping hand ! He sees the true joy of real life.
So wad if you're rich ? You're gonna leave the world with the same amount as i am. Thats $0.00 if you must ask. =)
I used to give $2-5 to old uncles and aunties who sells tissue near mrt, hawker centers, played songs near mrt and so on! And there was once, i rmb giving $2 to the current superstar now. He was performing in bishan mrt which drew a large crowd. And if you think i'm boasting , i dont give a damn =D All i could say is that Chunkwang was with me that day we saw him performing outside for a living.
Now that i'm really broke , i cant help out as in the past.
Once i was told that by putting my faith in God, i could see the world in a better view.
Its uber true.
Rmb i had an uncle that recently got diagnosed with stomach cancer ? He had the whole stomach removed... rmb?
He was a tall strong build man in his 50s .. i guess i left out a point. He grew a whole head of white hair overnight. To make it sound simple, means his whole head of black hair which was the usual, turn white overnight !( how does that grab you ? )
Till date, he's still fighting for survival !
FUCK IT .. if my uncle could do it. Why cant i ? I can too stand up after falling down. Does this makes sense?
Everyyear my new year resolution would be turning over a new leaf. Changing for the better. Every year i failed to face myself.
This time round i dont wish for any other things beside Lord jesus's forgiving powers. We are all sinners in Truth / Fact ! Everytime i open up the papers to read about soccer news, i would end up in worldly affiars and see those earthquake, storm, moonsoon, war ... all bringing death upon mankind.
And it jus hurts me to see little children with no clothes on, hanging around outdoor with freezing bitter wind. At the age of 2 , 3 ? They lost their parents ? Lose a leg in war ? I would always start to pray.
If they would even fight for survival , why cant i ? I asked myself.
My point for today is that , wadever happened to you, regardless of you're really ill, you're poor, you're sick in the mind , you're wadsoever. Jus dont give up on yourself and most importantly , God.
I got this friend, his msn nick was "goodbye to family ties , i'm all alone... " He was chatting to me the other day , and i spoke to him about it. He was whining and whining to me. Saying how sad his case was! He moved out alone, break ties with family, troubles flowing in and so on. He was like about to cry. When i told him my story. He keep quiet for a moment, and started to say " what happened ? I thought everything was alright at your side... , i'm sorry i didn't know about it..." "how did you manage to survive this far ? "
I replied : " God's grace" and log off.
He was a guy who live in a world of his own. He only think about his own matters, own problems. Never spare a thought for others. At the age of 29 going 30 next year, i was quite disppointed in him.
( Anyway for more details in his stories , i'll only review it to close friends who are kpo. Not on blog. )
Think of the big picture instead of always selfish thoughts!
good nite. nono ... guess its morning ! =D wake me up with a phonecall at 9am, someone who cares ? anyone ? darn. =/